Update: Guys, I’m back to Nepal. It began raining cats & dogs when I reached Dharmashala. That means monsoon rains are coming. Also got cold diarhea. Was also not feeling well physically. That means time to rest.
Many people in India must be taking a sigh of relief that I’m back to Nepal finally. But plz note that I’ll keep on visiting India again & again. 😆 I still have to see many parts of India.
When I was entering Nepal, a staff at the border asked: Are you Indian or Nepali? Officially, I’m a Nepali citizen coz you’re supposed to have a country. Otherwise, I feel like I’ve gone beyond all traditional definitions.
Since I’m not making any notes these days, i’m posting everything from memory in short.
* A Meeting with the Kabir Panthees – Visited the Kabir Ashram in Dhaulpur, Rajasthan and stayed for a day there. Amrit Sahib is really a learned as well as spiritually grown person. See guys, my contact with spiritual people is growing, and they all want me to join them. He also explained that Kabir Panth is in the middle between the Argumentative Bramhans and the Silent Buddhists.
* People in Rajasthan respect the holimen a lot. Many people did me Namaste seeing my holy robes. And at the Ashram, not only the young people, but even a man older than my dad touched my feet. Guys, looks like I’m also becoming a holy man… After all, many people since my childhood have been predicting than I’d be a holy man. 😆
* Met a soldier from Andhra Pradesh on the train. He was very friendly with me. He was also a devout Christian. It was a bit revealing for me that a person with a traditional Sanskrit name could also be a devout Christian who reads Bible before going to bed every night. He was also a very funny man. ‘You know, while I was reading the Bible, I felt an urge for sex’ he said. I told him to go to the toilet and release himself. He said: ‘No, I’m going to home now. I’ll release it with my wife.’
* Another incident I forgot to mention: It was the Holi festival when I arrived in Bodh Gaya. A policeman gave me a lift for about 4 Kms. See guys, everyone wants to help me to achieve what I want. After all, it’s going to benefit the whole humanity.
*Ajmer: I found Ajmer more interesting than mentioned by the guides book, especially around the Lake area. And contrary to the traditional sounding name, the Ajmeris are a fashion concious people.
* Taj Mahal: The Taj Mahal in Agra is worth all the hype. I especially enjoyed the resonating sound made by passing air inside the main building.
* Pushkar: Pushkar is really a quiet place surrounded by the desert mountains. A lesson to learn from Pushkar is that they have built a system of providing drinking water at various points.
* Right now I’m in Dharmashala. Will meditate if got an opportunity, otherwise will move further.
* After travelling this much, I’ve sensed that India takes security issues very seriously. So to undertand India, you must understand it’s security concerns. And that’s understandable. I’ve also sensed that security people are a bit concerned over my motive of travelling. They need not. India has been my second home since my childhood.
* Some people are wondering why I’m travelling like this. Guys, I’m not only travelling, I’m also becoming a travel expert on India. And that could be my next profession.
* A Note: May be I won’t blog for a long time. As I’ve said earlier, thinking interferes with meditation. So, please visit at your own risk. 😉
Was into meditation again… but as long as I write blog columns, it’ll be difficult for me to do the concentration part of meditation…coz thinking interferes with concentration…moreover, thinking for blogging is also interefering with my other pursuits here… moreover, finding a cyber is really difficult… so, i’m ‘thinking’ of discontinuing blogging…so, don’t miss me guys, if you don’t see an update..
while meditating i see it vividly that i’m not a being but all the time i’m becoming… every moment the world is becoming and i’m also becoming… and i also see how people invite misery for themselves out of ignorance… personally, i’m happy, so i don’t need to meditate for personal reasons…but i admit that i still have to grow more spiritually…
A well-wisher colleague had once suggested that instead of blogging i should write books…i think i should also ponder over his idea… or may be i should write travelogues for magazines…that way i would also make some money for survival…
I’m amused to find that so many people in India are willing to help me… some have even given there adresses and have asked to contact them whenever i needed any help…
An interesting event: A man suggested that I should change my surname to a more polite one… coz it shows my ‘bramhinistic arrogance’…In fact, often I also find my surname a bit uncomfortable, although i’ve to use it that way officially…… so, in the Facebook, I’ve again changed my name to Divas Sapiens…
Even in India many people are wondering what course i’d take further… whether i’ll be social or i’ll take even more individualistic way…
A few people have suggested that a highly individualistic person like me should go to the Badri area and meditate there…they say that there’re many places and people like me there…but I’ve still to see many parts of India before that…
You guys might be wondering where I’m these days and what I’m doing. Well, I’m still at Varanasi. This place has been able to keep me here for several days. And for many reasons.
Varanasi, especially the Ghats around the Ganges, is a place for eccentric people like me. Even culturally you don’t feel an outsider here. In fact, I was a bit surprized to meet two Jyapu teachers from Bhaktapur Bode in the Nepali Dharmashala during my first visit. And the place is also filled with tourists from all over the world. Hence, the place is generally tolerant of unknown people. In fact, it’s a multi-cultural world.
You can swim in the Ganges whole day long and free of cost. 😆 The Ganges here is quiet and wide, and it remind you of Sholokhov’s ‘Quiet Flows the Don’. And I’m amused when I hear boatmen shouting: Par Jaaoge?(Wanna go the Other side?). Do they really understand what they’re saying?
I’m always around the Ghats, that too nearby Dashaswamedh Ghat. In the morning I sit on a cool berendah of a closed shop. Since it’s hot in the afternoon, I find a shaded place a sit there. Surfing the net is also easier here. Foods are also comparatively cheaper. And most importantly, you can sleep on the Ghats free of cost.
Although I don’t speak with anyone, I think people have begun recognising me. Even the security people are aware of me. A security personnel checked my hand bag the day before yesterday. And yesterday, another security personnel in plain clothes and with a sniffer dog checked my backpack. But they were very decent with me. I guess security people also know that I’m in India as a special guest of President Mukherjee and PM Singh. 😆 They just wanna make it sure that I don’t take a ‘wrong’ way. And I see them working really hard for my safety. Good job, guys! 😉
Yesteday, I ate a free meal for the first time. I was roaming around looking for some cheap place to eat, and saw that ‘free meal’ or ‘Prasad’ was being distributed in front of the Biswonath Temple. Later I came to know that since it’s a Prasad, everyone takes it. And although I don’t participate in the rituals, I also enjoy eating Prasad. 😆
I’m trying to keep my cost of living to a minimum. I eat basic foods like Idli, Puri, etc to save money. And I’ve started to drink plain tap water. In this way I can go on for a long time, even without begging. 😆
And I’ve become even more introvert. Looks like I’m still ‘angry’ with some people from my past for their ‘unfair’ treatment, although I don’t get emotional. I avoid speaking as far as possible. I just wish people didn’t talk to me out of their curiosity. Coz speaking interferes with my observation. I’m thinking of hanging a placard on my neck with the message: Silence Please’.
In short, I’m happier and even more peaceful.
When I said that even Buddha speaks from a limited perspective, a nice lady on Facebook persuaded me to think over Jesus as the only Way. That’s how people misunderstand me. What she didn’t understand that when I say even Buddha speaks from a limited perspective, I also mean that Jesus and other ‘enlightened’ beings also speak from their own limited perspective. Similarly, from Plato to Marx and to Gandhi, no matter how respected their position may be in the history, all of them speak from their limited perspective.
And I know that they knowingly speak from a limited perspective, coz they want to create a system. But, I’m not creating a system. Therefore, I do not follow any fixed pattern. Often I experiment. And often I make myself the object of experiment to experience things.
Whenever i find it suitable i take inspiration from all my predecessors, and whenever i think it necessary i also refute them. I experience the world. I try to see things as they’re. And I try to see things from different perspectives. And I also seek justice for all.
And by nature, I’m highly individualistic. In that sense I resemble more to Shiva, if you’d compare me to mythological figures. I try to see things with my third eye. You’d also find people like me among the romantic, beat and hippie poets. And also among the ‘mad’ people, although it might be debatable who’s really ‘mad’.
I’m trying to discover the root cause of human suffering of my times. Besides the lack of interpersonal skills and ignorance, the root causes of all unnecessary human suffering lie in the social systems based on false premises. Almost all the works in the history of mankind are based on false premises. And often social structures are intentionally based false premises – as an expression of power.
Not only that, most of the so-called intellectual works and theories prescribed by the modern knowledge industry are also based on false premises. And if you’ll base your systems and values on wrong foundations, you’ll never arrive at the right conclusions. And thus mankind goes through perpetual suffering.
Diagnosing the root cause of social and political maladies and finding the right cure is never an easy process. But, it’s an unavoidable & legitimate suffering that the society must go through. The society must go through the intense pain of self-reflection to accommodate the changes demanded by today’s increasingly technological and globalized world.
As I said earlier, Swami Ananda has attained a higher level of consciousness. And I’m not saying it on the basis of what he said. Any fool can talk wise – therefore, beware of wise sayings. But, no matter how wise you may be sounding, you cannot hide what you really are. That Swami Ananda has attained a higher level of consciousness is evident not in what he speaks, but in how he speaks, and in how he does things.
Still, everyone speaks from their own unique position. Even a Buddha speaks from his own limited point of view – and he cannot do so otherwise. So, Swami Aananda also speaks from his own limited perspective. I consider it my opportunity that Swamiji allowed me to observe him. And he also allowed me to write my impressions. And I’m really influenced by what he tried to convey to me through his being. Still, i’d say Swamiji doesn’t understand my perspective.
I’m saying ‘Aham Bramha’ to assert myself, but not to reject others. In fact, I’m one of the very few people in the history of mankind who accepts everyone unconditionally as they are. I don’t say anything to impress, to create a following, or to seek any sort of recognition. I’ve a very clear conscience. And I do and say whatever my Bramha or conscience dictates. That’s why Aham Bramha. And for me, there’s no difference between ‘Aham’ and ‘Sarvamidam’.
I’ve only one message to the mankind: do whatever makes you happy – whatever makes you happy is good, right and holy. Everything else is false. Coz I believe that only when you’re happy, you can do anything ‘good’ even from worldly point of view. In fact, when you’re happy and enjoying life, other people enjoy their life simply by observing you.
Swami Ananda deserves more mentioning. Just as Swamiji was observing me, I was also observing him.
Swamiji said, “Dekho Beta, many people are lost in this path, but I see that you’re going the right way. Your greatest quality is that you accept everything. But, you still need to travel a long distance on this path.”
Then he further elucidated his point: “I saw you sitting alone in the park. You could have been anyone – a murderer, a thief, a terrorist or a madman. Still, I invited you to my home. I still don’t know even your name, and now you’re in my bedroom. This is an approach of looking at others that you should also cultivate: Sarvamidam Khalam Bramha(The whole world is Bramha).
I said: I can also see that other people are trapped in their lifestyle. Swamiji said: Seeing is not enough, being happy for yourself is not enough, you should also help them out. Then he gave the examples of Buddha and Mahavira: They were helping other people until their last moment in their eighties. And I remembered Todke Baba of Shivapuri who once said: I’m happy. But now I feel like helping others in their pursuit of happiness.
I said to him: I also do not go to everyone’s house. I saw you and felt like there must be something in common between us. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have come to your house: Aham Bramha.
Then Swamiji asked me to visit an Ashram in Madhavpur. “There’s my one disciple there, observe him how he does things,” he said. And when I was in the Madhavpur Ashram, I found that Swamiji was already there. “So, it was all your trick. I’d not imagined that we’d meet again,” I said. Swamiji said: Aisa hota hai, beta. I’d also not planned this visit. Ye sab ‘happening’ me ho raha hai(everything is just happening).”
Then he explained his method of choiceless awareness.
Swamiji had asked me to stay in the Ashram for at least 3 days. However, I didn’t feel like staying there. When I was leaving, Swamiji took my hands in his hands and said smilingly: I won’t stop you if you don’t want to stay here. But once I catch someone’s hands, I don’t leave them easily.” And I also said smilingly: Swamiji, don’t forget that I’m also holding your hands. And I also don’t leave anyone that easily.”
Swamiji said: Mai us raah ki baat kar raha hoon, beta. (I’m talking abt ‘that’ path, son).
I said: Mai bhi usi raah ki baat kar raha hoon, swamiji.
Swamiji commanded immense respect from his people. But I was talking to him just like a friend. And Swamiji also seemed to enjoy my informal manners. Then he said: You also know that Sarvamidam Khalam Bramha. But, you don’t seem to care for others’ feelings. Mahasoos karo, beta.
It’s not difficult to find a Swamiji in India and Nepal. But I found that Swami Ananda had really attained a higher consciousness. You could see it in his being. In the way he spoke, and in the way he did did things.
These days people often ask me: Are you a vegetarian?
And my answer varies.
Sometimes i say: yes, i’m a vegetarian.
Sometimes i say: I’m a seasonal or almost vegetarian.
I’ve been a heavy meat eater half my life. And I’ve preached against eating meat in the remaining half. There was a time when I used to eat only fish and there was a time when I used to eat only eggs. And there was a time when I was completely vegan, I used to look down upon even those who consumed dairy products.
But, even Buddhism has to allow eating animal products when it goes to high mountains of Tibet. As the first Everest summiteer Tenzing Norgay Sherpa says in his autobiography:
“The reason we Sherpas have been so successful on climbing expeditions lie not only in our strong backs and legs, or in our love of mountains, but also in our eating habits. Most people of the east – Hindus, Moslems, Orthodox Buddhists, and almost all the smaller groups – have strict religious rules about diet, and it is very hard to keep them properly fed in the wilderness. But a Sherpa will eat anything – fresh, dehydrated, or out of tin – … our main food is apt to be some sort of stew, usually with potatoes as a basis and with meat or vegetable mixed in.”
(From Man of Everest – The Autobiography of Tenzing told to James Ramsey Ullman)
So, the Mahayana Buddhists from high mountains of Tibet, Nepal and Bhutan do eat meat products, but they say that they don’t kill the animals. They say that they eat the meat of a dead animal, which fell from a precipice accidentally. And sometimes they leave the Yak and other animals on a high precipice and wait for it to fall accidentally.
So, whenever i consider it necessary, I do eat animal products even now. And still I’d love to call myself a vegetarian.
I don’t think that any human being can be called a strict vegetarian today, even if he/she does not eat meat.
Even if you don’t eat animal products directly, if you take modern medicines and medical services which are based on cruel animal trials, then you are in no way a vegetarian.
Moreover, non-veg items do taste pleasing to your taste buds!
And how can you call yourself a vegetarian, if you eat milk products?
So, my answer would be: yes, I’m a vegetarian. But, don’t get surprised if you saw me eating animal products.
Some even claim that Buddha died of diarrhea due to food poisoning after he consumed ‘Pig’s Foot’. Others say that ‘Pig’s Foot’ is not really a pig’s foot, but the name of a mushroom species. Whatever, I understand why most of the spiritual disciplines from the East, especially those which focus on meditation, advise a vegetarian diet.
Coz I agree with my one friend who used to say that eating eggs raises your testosterone levels considerably!